![]() ![]() He stares into the image that now encompasses his entire view as the woman smiles gently while rubbing his face. Suddenly, the darkness shatters, and a now crying child lays on the ground bawling into a now infinite white space. His soul seems to cry out as the feeling of longing begins to overwhelm him. He feels an attachment to this woman, unlike anything he has ever experienced. Everything else within the scene is a blur, but the image of the woman remains perfectly vivid within the ambiguity. He stares blankly into the image where a woman in tears cradles a young infant in her arms. There is no feeling of pain, only a longing, and a feeling of loss. Something outside the scope of his memory. To his surprise, he sees a scene foreign to him. Finally succumbing to the unease within, Vahn grits his 'teeth' and looks towards the last image as if to acknowledge his pain for the last time. The last bastion of the pain that defined his very existence. Within the darkness, a single image still remains, the last defining moment of his entire life. ![]() He feels as though he had been waiting a long time, but no matter how much time passes he cannot cease to be. He feels no sense contentedness, only a solemnity far beyond anything a fourteen-year-old child should possess.Īfter waiting for an indeterminant amount of time, an unease arrises within Vahn. He closes what he imagines to be his 'eyes' and awaits the coming oblivion. 'Finally, I don't have to suffer anymore…' ![]() Vahn instinctually knows that if the image fades, everything that ever defined who he was, his very existence itself, would fade into nothingness. Now only a single image remains within the darkness. Each image slowly begins to fade away, and with it, Vahn himself begins to fade. He refuses to stare at the images that only cause him pain. Vahn continues to stare into the abyss, developing a sense of longing to contrast the fear. The entire kaleidoscope fragments further, leaving only a few remnant images floating within the darkness. THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE ONES TO SUFFER, NOT ME.' 'I shouldn't even exist…what meaning did my life have? To be used as a tool for the benefit of others…I hate them. He begins to look within the encroaching darkness, something that causes a fundamental fear to resonate within his soul. Vahn lets his mind wander away from the images within the kaleidoscope. Without directly observing each fragment, he is able to let the pain cease. The kaleidoscope now begins to fragment, shattering into segmentary images which seem to exist outside the periphery of Vahn's focus. 'Why did I have to suffer so much…it's not fair.' The pain which now encompasses his entire being begins to dull as his mind seeks reprieve within the comfort of oblivion. Nobody deserves this pain.'Īs the events continue to cycle through his mind, the kaleidoscope slowly begins to dissolve from its edges. He remembers the time when he tried to commit suicide, only to have any semblance of freedom removed for his efforts. He remembers the group of scientists that tried to test his 'regenerative' properties by cutting and burning segments of his skin. He remembers the time where the Doctors had amputated his legs to keep him from moving around on his own. Key events begin to get emphasized within his mind, taking the forefront of the kaleidoscopes focus. He begins to 'scream' out with a voice that doesn't exist as the phantom pain pulses throughout his non-existent body, threatening to rob him of his existence. All the thoughts, pains, emotions, and agony which had been locked away in his mind assault him anew. He experiences the moment of his death once again, every single experiment he was ever put through. Memories from his life begin to cycle through like a reverse-kaleidoscope within his mind. In the seemingly infinite darkness, Vahn's consciousness begins to stir.
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